By the time Amelia departed from the room, leaving Dom lying sprawled across the bedspread in her wake, he had already drifted into comfortable sleep.
Of course, he knew Amelia would be nearby, and he didn’t expect her to lie around here with him and watch him sleep. How boring for her, even if he
might enjoy that. Of course, if he had stayed conscious long enough to see her go for her purse, he would have offered to go shopping along with
her—which would have inevitably ended with him insisting to pay for everything she bought. Because he still felt guilty about what had happened right
before he left.
He still thought about that constantly, even when his mind should have been focused on other things. The image of her sitting on her bedroom floor,
tears falling from her eyes because he’d kept such an ugly secret from her for so long. The feeling of her arms wrapped tight around him as she
whispered that she only wanted him to get better. He knew she would never completely forgive him for doing that to her, but he was determined to do
anything in his power to try.
Once he had enough sleep to function, of course.
It wasn’t long before he snored into the silence, a sign that he was really and truly deeply asleep for the first time since he’d arrived in LA.
Perhaps it wasn’t that Amelia had to be lying beside him, but just nearby, somewhere he could easily get to, should something happen. She did, after
all, ignite those protective reflexes in him that had been cultivated by his family since his childhood. Even if she could very well take care of
herself without any help from him, as she’d proven over and over again on those numerous occasions in which he’d failed her miserably. It wasn’t fair
to her that he was so selfishly keeping her around when she could have had so much more.
But then again, fair wasn’t ever fair. Amelia, of all people, would know that, because she’d been dealt the worst hand of all since he’d
walked into her life. He was just too much of a selfish asshole to let her go without a fight.
It was thoughts like these that had been running through his mind for weeks, and maybe his subconscious had only been waiting for him to fall asleep
so that it could truly show him the damage he was doing by staying with Amelia in anything more than a purely “enemy” status. Because the deeper he
fell into unconsciousness, the more vivid the pictures in his mind became. And as he slept there, he dreamed.
He saw Angela, first, as she had been on that day he’d first seen her. Sitting in Lorenzo’s office, dressed in a dove grey suit, her thick, black
locks wound into a tight bun behind her head. He remembered the first time she ever looked at him, her eyes a sharp green even behind the glasses she
wore. And their coming together had been slow, very slow, but inevitable; from the moment Lorenzo first introduced the two of them, it seemed like
they slowly gravitated towards each other. A smile crossed his face as his mind flickered through his memories of Angela, the first time that Lorenzo
had seemed to suspect their relationship, when she had moved in with him, when they’d been at Adrien’s house and someone had snapped that photo of the
two of them together—the one of Angela sitting on his lap, the only one anyone had ever taken of them together, the one he’d noticed was missing from
his pile of photos that Amelia had taken from his house.
The only evidence of his betrayal.
His mind jumped forward, to almost a year after they had met. He didn’t need a dream for this to haunt him, because he would suddenly yank himself
back into that time even in waking, purposely casting himself into dark moods, usually when the family found another traitor within their ranks that
he was supposed to deal with. He had just come home from work, only to find Angela curled up on the couch, a panicked expression on her face as she
stared unseeingly at his television. A blanket had been wrapped around her shoulders like a shield, and she barely even looked at him as he stepped
into the room—a first that worried him more than words could express.
At first he considered the possibility that Lorenzo had somehow discovered their relationship with irrefutable proof and that he’d fired her; romantic
relations could make anyone weak, and Lorenzo didn’t tolerate weakness in those he trusted most. But then again, wouldn’t he have gotten a call from
Lorenzo right now?
”Baby, what’s wrong? What happened?” he asked, sitting beside her on the sofa and wrapping his arms around her. She leaned into him, but shook her
head, refusing to answer at first.
“Baby, please. If something happened, I need to know—”
“I’m pregnant.”
A shocked silence encased them both, sucking the joy that had very often filled his living room from both of them. He should have been happy about
this, he thought. He loved Angela, wanted to marry her one day. But only when the time was right, and since the war with those damn Manicis was
raging, Lorenzo demanded that every one of his men be his full time, not allowing for cumbersome things such as emotion. He would have to wait until
things cooled down before it was smart to come out with their relationship publicly. And everyone, one day, would be happy for the both of them, but
not now.
“Exactly,” she mumbled, finally wrapping her arms around him in return. He felt the first wet drops soak through his shirt and realized she’d begun
crying.
They were both silent for a long while, holding each other in the silence as they considered their options.
“Baby, you know I won’t get rid of it,” she finally said, her voice so soft as it broke through the suffocating atmosphere of the room.
No, he hadn’t known that. But he knew better than to force her into anything she didn’t want.
“We could get married.”
Dom knew that in the real world, the way things had really happened, he had been the one to suggest that. But in his dream, they said it
together.
And then he was back to this disgusting nightmare he’d endured for years, the one that continued to plague his mind. An angry Lorenzo pacing in front
of him as he sat in the cellar of the Ghiberti mansion, in a cold plastic chair, staring into the eyes of his fiancé, the mother of his child.
”I’ll admit, you had us fooled for a long while, Miss Luvisi. But you should have known it wouldn’t last forever, would it?” Lorenzo’s cold voice
slithered over his skin in the foulest way as he questioned Angela. He knew she was looking at him, silently begging him to help her while his
grandfather slowly killed her, but he couldn’t look at her. Instead, he sat near the door, staring down at the dusty wooden floor as hatred and rage
burned through his veins. He hated her, hated Angela for what she’d done to him, what she’d put him at risk for.
How much she’d lied to him all this time.
He heard the sound of a slap, hand against cheek, and the sound of Angela screaming through the gag burning into him, pulling at his heart with such
ferocity that he lost his breath. He was just waiting for Lorenzo to turn to him and accuse him of betrayal; he was sure that even if he didn’t know
before, he would certainly know now; the shame was written plainly across his face.
And on it went like this for hours, until Angela’s face was battered and bloody and all of the men in the room had had a go at teaching her a lesson.
Except him. He remained in his seat and watched the spectacle only when it seemed they wanted a reaction, and he ignored the silent pleas in her eyes
as they killed her. They would kill him too if he revealed that they were engaged, that she was having his baby. He would watch as they killed the
best—and worst—thing that had ever happened to him.
Lorenzo, seemingly taller and much more threatening in the realm of his dream, turned to him, holding out the gun that would kill Angela Luvisi with
all the drama that he loved.
Dominic took it all too willingly, stood, and crossed the room to where Angela sat, her wrists bound to her chair. They didn’t see it, but he could
just barely make out the round little bump of his baby, the life he could have had if it weren’t for the two faced mother that had helped conceive it.
The mother he didn’t love, not anymore. He held the gun up, rage and hatred burning in his eyes as they bored into hers. He noted with satisfaction
that hope drained from her eyes as he cocked the trigger.
“Hey, Ghiberti, let’s get this show on the road, alright? We’ve been at it for hours.”
Dom turned to grin at the man, a shared camaraderie that came from disposing of the worst thing that had ever happened to their families.
But when he turned back, he saw Amelia’s face in place of Angela’s. The same hopeless expression, the fear and the revulsion that had replaced the
love and affection had been so similar between the two women, but this was clearly Amelia who was being threatened by his weapon.
And just as he pulled the trigger, he woke up.
The former Ghiberti prince shot up in the bed, his breathing labored as he struggled to wipe the images from his mind. He covered his eyes, fighting
for breath in the darkness of the hotel room.
“Holy shit.” He rubbed his face, nausea roiling through him as he remembered that he had killed Amelia, not Angela, in his dreams. It didn’t
take a genius to realize that he wasn’t killing Amelia physically, as he had Angela, but that his transgressions against Amelia were just as bad—still
killing her, emotionally and mentally, with his constant betrayals just as surely as one day she would be killed by someone else for the sin of loving
him.
God, what was he doing to her?
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